Something I drew when I was writing a list of my goals and aspirations. My way of encouraging myself.

Dreams that you saw among the stars come crashing down onto the blacktop of reality. The balloon in your hand slips away. Rain drops taste more like pollution than they ever have before

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Classic Crime...

To be honest I didn't get into Classic Crime until recently. Glad I saw the light. So anyway today I was listening to The Silver Cord and heard the song 5805. The line:

Now we are swimming in memories, how we wish we could go back We hold the hope that someday we'll see the world again like that.

These words perfectly describe how I have been feeling lately. So I am writing my own song about it. Do you ever feel that way? Like the world was better in the past and everything has gotten progressively worse? The sky isn't nearly as bright blue, it rains more often, (well this year that one is true) Dreams that you saw among the stars have come crashing down to shatter on the blacktop of reality... It's a sad day when life changes from the secure, idealized version you see as a child, to the stark cold image of mans imperfection it truly is.

Je suis triste...

Mon cœur brûle dans ma poitrine, et pourtant je n'ai jamais senti si froid. :(

so guess what...

...apparently somehow I never got marked down as having changed to History major in the college records so I am still a Music Industry major. I can live with that mistake.

By the way. I apologize for my rant in the last post. I was probably the only one who cared about any of that.

Had my last class of the week today. Meteorology. Interesting subject, but I think the teacher is a bit off. I don't really remember much of what we learned in the two and a half hours of class. I think it may have had something to do with the fact that she gave us print outs of her power point, so I really didn't feel like I needed to listen, because it was all right there on my desk. That, and she tended to go off on tangents.

I am thinking about going for a spot as an SGA senator. Just because I feel like it. We'll see what happens.

Lately I have been trying to write more songs, but they all are ending up sounding emo. :P Not the good kind of emo music either. The whiny kind. It bugs me. lol So anyway. Thats all I have to say for now. I'm sure it changed your life. If you are out there and bored enough to be reading this why don't you say hello. Leave a comment and say something dumb. or smart if you can... it doesn't matter. lol

cool life..

So yesterday was my first day of classes at community college.
It was pretty cool for the most part. However, what wasn't cool was the insane amount of highschool snobs and dorky guys I saw. I just finished my freshman year at a college where I lived on campus. I loved every minute of it. I had tons of friends, was always involved in activities, and I would always feel bad for the commuters. Because they really had nothing to do between classes when they had a long break, whereas I could go to my dorm room and get some work done, or relax.
Well, now I am on the other side of the fence. Living at home, driving to school, being bored when I have 2hrs btween Psychology and English Comp. Yeah, yet another "not cool" feeling.
If every day there will be exactly like the first one then I am saying right now I will hate this year. I did not meet anyone I could see myself being good friends with, besides the people I already knew previously, and that doesn't really count. The courses I am taking I think will be very difficult.

My freshman year I was a music performance major. I took voice lessons, was in the musical, sung on a worship team, played in the coffee houses, sang with my friends, was in the chorale and chamber singers. I was all about music and performing. I reveled in it. I want music to be my life.
Then I had to switch to community college. Where the only music courses they offer are guitar, piano and a few other Intro to music classes.
Where is the Music theory 2, Sight singing, Vox Pop, composition, conducting etc?

Rather than major in general studies I decided to try a second option.
I changed my major to history. As a result I am taking
Anthropology
Psychology
English,
Modern Culture and the Arts, and
Meteorology.
Cool life...

Don't get me wrong. I love history and culture and the like. I was always the nerd who watched the discovery channel instead of the Disney Channel. However when it comes to Music vs. History. Music will always win in my heart. So I suppose all that to say,
My first day of school sucked. :(

Hello

To those of you that don't know who I am, I have no idea how you were lucky enough to happen upon this blog, but Welcome. :) To those of you that do know me, this blog is an outlet for all the things I would like to say on my other blog, but I feel the need to have a seperate one and leave the other to be more focused on music.
In case you don't know, the meaning of my blog title: "Je ne sais quoi" means something that doesn't quite translate to english from french but roughly comes to mean "indescribable"... which, to my mind is ironic. Another thing that strikes me as humorous in writing this post is that when I left the word "English" uncapitalized, spellcheck underlined it. Yet when I left "French" the same way, it failed to notice. Shame on you spellcheck.
Anyway.
Basically I chose the name for the blog because my posts will not have any rhyme or reason. I am warning you now that I am going to ramble about anything and everything. So if you really love me, it may interest you. If not, then you may want to get lost. JUST KIDDING. you can stay if you want...